Filed under: on my mind
minutes tick before me. a steady reminder of the importance of it all. cherishing the present. breathing into it. feeling so lucky with the hand i have been dealt. the hard times are washed over by a refreshing flow of love in hues of blue and vanilla. from my finger tips to my toes it spreads through me. i will awake tomorrow to the orange sun setting over my home as i lay warm and comfortable with sleep in my eyes. i will turn my head and see a smile before me and glowing eyes. a kiss planted on my forehead. cherishing the future. breathing into it.
Filed under: if there's nothing left to burn...
Using this tool http://www.franklincovey.com/tc/resources/view/msb I have created a personal mission statement. Of course it can evolve and should throughout the next weeks, months, years but it is a starting point. I hope that what I do in this world will reflect these statements of my core values. Why don’t you give it a try. Feel free to post it in the comments section.
Here it is:
Kristen Morris’ mission statement
I declare that:
I will remember how importance kindness is
I will covet and nurture all of my relationships
I will surround myself with people who make me feel safe and comforted
I will remember to fill my life with laughter even in the most difficult of situations
I will try to be considerate in all of my actions
I will search for my truth
I will be open to the people and the world around me and to new opportunites
I will continue to look for ways I can expand my knowledge
I will not try to be anything but myself
I will not take life too seriously and find joy in everything I do
I will not let fear get in the way of living my life
I will use Mandela’s journey to find the courage to know that I should always stand up for what I believe in
Filed under: on my mind
the pin hole sized wound that only allowed the pain to drip in slowly has now become a steady stream.
her life missed
her smile gone,
living only in our memory
an alternate universe that we now have to live in
that does not include her
where we are still expected to smile and shine on
to listen to other’s life aggrevations and nod and try to listen
but not be able to really hear
i remain confused.
i remain hurt.
but alas, i remain.
Filed under: all that noise
i find myself angry at the world right now. and i want it to stop. last night i walked along my street looking up at the moon in disbelief. usually in disbelief of its enigmatic beauty but tonight instead by its audacity to show up as if everything was normal and on track.
i find myself sad because of the world right now. and i want it to stop. the gentlest of melodies or an explosion of memories within my brain force tears to fall from my eyes. tears that i am now too tired to shed.
and then it will be the simplest of things that brings me back. the most simple acts in life that can renew my strength if even for a moment. as simple as the way the clerk at my corner store smiles when he sees that i’m back and how he seems genuinely heartbroken if i only buy one chocolate bar instead of three because the deal is too good to pass up. or to see a baby bundled up in a stoller, eyes open to the world around.
so when the moon comes out again like clockwork i will try to look at it with new eyes. until they are not filled with tears though i do not believe i will be able to see its beauty again.
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is Osama Bin Laden?
Always a fan of Morgan Spurlock and looking forward to seeing this one!
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4jgwq_where-in-the-world-is-osama-bin-lad_shortfilms
Sometimes I yearn to be the things that I am not Yearn to be in the places I can not yet or may never see Maybe a lead in a rock band, hair in my face, cig in my hand, dark Feeling the music running through my body like a drug Floating above the crowds, free Or today wanting to work for the greater good Knee deep in dirt with sweat pouring down my face To make a difference in this sometimes shitty world Why have we ever agreed to these standards of life we have been served The working, the pace, the wanting of more, More of what, for what A band of horses have picked me up Moved me beyond Tears flow freely now Shhhhh Change the record
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the music from this beautiful film http://www.foxsearchlight.com/once/
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josh radin’s songs ‘today’ and ‘closer’
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kanye west’s song ‘stronger’
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ingrid michaelson’s breakable
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Gladys Marie Sills, my grandma, at 19 years of age pictured above. I wonder what she thought would come of here life when this picture was taken. What dreams she had, what hopes. It is so strange to see myself in her face and eyes. As I stroked her hair and felt her tiny hand in mine, I reminded her of all the stories she had told me over tea or on our sunday drives between LA and her home. The job at the playing card factory where she would go round and round the table, meeting grandpa at the dance, the time she took the car and ran off to Chatham in a fit of anger and empowerment - the stories she loved to tell. No words to share left within her mouth, she listened. She heard. She knew that her stories would live on and that although her world didn’t exist too far beyond a small city in ontario, that the people who kept them would and have been around the world. comfortable and warm with a teddy bear in her arms, she heard that she was loved and that she was a good grandmother and that it was now time to sleep and have sweet dreams.
When death comes
like the hungry bear in autumn;
when death comes and takes all the bright coins from his purse
to buy me, and snaps the purse shut;
when death comes
like the measle-pox
when death comes
like an iceberg between the shoulder blades,
I want to step through the door full of curiosity, wondering:
what is it going to be like, that cottage of darkness?
And therefore I look upon everything
as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,
and I look upon time as no more than an idea,
and I consider eternity as another possibility,
and I think of each life as a flower, as common
as a field daisy, and as singular,
and each name a comfortable music in the mouth,
tending, as all music does, toward silence,
and each body a lion of courage, and something
precious to the earth.
When it’s over, I want to say all my life
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.
When it’s over, I don’t want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.
I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.
I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.
–Mary Oliver
Filed under: on my mind
i am so looking forward to spending some quality time with friends this weekend. hopefully by the time we meet i will finally be finished all my shopping and can just concentrate on all my sweet, soulful beauties and my boyzzz and of course my jay. of course it won’t be the same without jodes this year, so i put this picture up to lift my spirits about that. her charm and fun spirit are exactly what draw me to her and this picture, like almost all pictures of jody, capture the essence of that. i know she is sad as well that she isn’t able to come this year but i hope she knows that even when she is miles and miles away she is always in my thoughts and heart and that i think it is so amazing that she is hosting her very first christmas. so a very big holiday hug, kiss and smile go out to jodes, dave and aidan this saturday! we all love you and can’t wait to see you in the new year!
