Sunny Road

i find myself angry at the world right now. and i want it to stop. last night i walked along my street looking up at the moon in disbelief. usually in disbelief of its enigmatic beauty but tonight instead by its audacity to show up as if everything was normal and on track.

i find myself sad because of the world right now. and i want it to stop. the gentlest of melodies or an explosion of memories within my brain force tears to fall from my eyes. tears that i am now too tired to shed.

and then it will be the simplest of things that brings me back. the most simple acts in life that can renew my strength if even for a moment. as simple as the way the clerk at my corner store smiles when he sees that i’m back and how he seems genuinely heartbroken if i only buy one chocolate bar instead of three because the deal is too good to pass up. or to see a baby bundled up in a stoller, eyes open to the world around.

so when the moon comes out again like clockwork i will try to look at it with new eyes. until they are not filled with tears though i do not believe i will be able to see its beauty again.